I'm scared about my feelings.
On one hand, I want to let them rip. On the other... I find it very, very important to be cautious.
What if hes not the one? What if when I see him I get no butterflies? What if theres a better deal at NCA? What if theres a better deal through the matchmaker?
What if my parents refuse and so do his? What if he realizes the definition of rebound and applies it to me? What if the burden of all that baggage finally burries me until I have no choice but to throw it back on him and flee?
I don't want to hurt anyone.
And I don't want to be a bad girl.
But I also want to close my eyes and fall. I would like that very much- and who would be a better candidate to fall with than my best friend?
Life's messed up mysteries.
