Always.

Once again baby.
Once again you've proved that my feelings mean nothing to you.
So thanks for that.
Thanks for breaking my heart every single week.
Every alternate day.
I wonder why it's okay for you to do that
I wonder why it's okay for you to leave me hurt.
Why you always always have to rub in my face that my love will never be enough to tame the darkness in you.
I wonder when you'll treat me like you should.
It has to happen some day right?
It has to. It has to. It has to. It has to. It has to.
I won't say anything to you this time. I wanted to slip a ring on your finger and you stepped on mine while I tried to.
It's okay.
I promised I wouldn't ruin things. And I won't. This time I won’t. I will be selfless and have you be selfish. As usual. Like always.
I was finally starting to get excited you know? At the thought of December I was finally waking up. But you've put that into a sort of limbo. I'm dreading the fights and the sadness and the almost breakup and the breakup. I do not want to break up.
I love you so much.
Please love me too.