Stupid

Why am I the weakest link?
Why do I speak without thinking and always speak my mind?
They were all true but I believed in myself. It wasn't a lot, but it was enough to survive.
But now? As you chisel away at my skin, the half healed wounds are exposed once again and I fear they will never close up.

How many knives will I dig out from my back?
I know why this happens.
I'm too stupid to stop it.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

You laugh at me, all of you.
I will prove you wrong, damn it.
I will, I will, I will.

Maybe I won't seeing as I'm so fucking stupid.

But maybe I will.

I will, I will, I will.